What is that big sucking sound?
Oh, it was my week. That's what it was.
This was one of those weeks that was sucky for everyone I know pretty much. No-one I know had a good week this week. I had a lot of early days at work, and a couple of late days, and one day that was both early and late, which was pretty tiring. I've not been sleeping well, and I think I could be in a funk.
Funks are what I term 'short-term depressions'. I recognize all the signs. I'm lethargic. I have a hard getting excited about anything at work or at home. I go to bed early because I can't really think of anything else I want to do. My eating habits get wonkie (some days I just don't feel like putting in the effort to eat, and I don't get hungry at all. Other days I'm ravenous and eat all day long). The most telling thing is that I'm due to get a new computer. This is usually one of my biggest thrills in life (usually ranked right behind the birth of a child or having sex), because I only do this once every 2 or 3 years (I'd LIKE it to be every 2 years, but I was only able to do that once, and that was 10 years ago).
Usually when I'm shopping around for a new computer, I spend literally months ahead of time doing lots of research and comparing different company offers and specials and specs and everything. This time I've only been looking at 2 websites, and haven't really been thrilled with anything I've seen there. I also usually have some new game that's just come out or is just about to come out that I'm dying to get into. I don't have that right now either. I don't really have the time to play a MMOG for hours at a time like I want, and there's no single player games out or coming out that just floor me (Civ4 is good, but it's not flooring me, and Elder Scrolls Oblivion . . . meh). Meh. That's kinda been my mantra for almost a month now.
The really scary thing is that I'm even considering NOT getting the new PC and spending the money elsewhere!!!! This is what really told me that I must be depressed. I would have NEVER considered something like that in the old days. I always cared too much. Now I don't seem to care.
So, how to combat a funk? Well, first I've got to identify it, then confront it, then move on. I know I've written on this before. It's not an un-natural process. The problem is that it IS un-natural for me. I've never been good at 'searching my feelings'. I'm better now than I've ever been, but it is still difficult for me to try and really identify where my problem is, and not just make one up to get it out of the way. Oh well. Wish me luck.
And if I seem a little down in the mouth these days, please, tell me why. :)
This was one of those weeks that was sucky for everyone I know pretty much. No-one I know had a good week this week. I had a lot of early days at work, and a couple of late days, and one day that was both early and late, which was pretty tiring. I've not been sleeping well, and I think I could be in a funk.
Funks are what I term 'short-term depressions'. I recognize all the signs. I'm lethargic. I have a hard getting excited about anything at work or at home. I go to bed early because I can't really think of anything else I want to do. My eating habits get wonkie (some days I just don't feel like putting in the effort to eat, and I don't get hungry at all. Other days I'm ravenous and eat all day long). The most telling thing is that I'm due to get a new computer. This is usually one of my biggest thrills in life (usually ranked right behind the birth of a child or having sex), because I only do this once every 2 or 3 years (I'd LIKE it to be every 2 years, but I was only able to do that once, and that was 10 years ago).
Usually when I'm shopping around for a new computer, I spend literally months ahead of time doing lots of research and comparing different company offers and specials and specs and everything. This time I've only been looking at 2 websites, and haven't really been thrilled with anything I've seen there. I also usually have some new game that's just come out or is just about to come out that I'm dying to get into. I don't have that right now either. I don't really have the time to play a MMOG for hours at a time like I want, and there's no single player games out or coming out that just floor me (Civ4 is good, but it's not flooring me, and Elder Scrolls Oblivion . . . meh). Meh. That's kinda been my mantra for almost a month now.
The really scary thing is that I'm even considering NOT getting the new PC and spending the money elsewhere!!!! This is what really told me that I must be depressed. I would have NEVER considered something like that in the old days. I always cared too much. Now I don't seem to care.
So, how to combat a funk? Well, first I've got to identify it, then confront it, then move on. I know I've written on this before. It's not an un-natural process. The problem is that it IS un-natural for me. I've never been good at 'searching my feelings'. I'm better now than I've ever been, but it is still difficult for me to try and really identify where my problem is, and not just make one up to get it out of the way. Oh well. Wish me luck.
And if I seem a little down in the mouth these days, please, tell me why. :)
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