"The road of life is full of pain and joy. The former keeps us on the path to growth, and the latter makes the journey tolerable."
First things first, this is almost certainly a bad idea. The reason I say this is because I have tried to do something similar before. I've kept diaries, and journals, and even written some poems (this little revelation will stun some people). The problem is I have NEVER been able to continue with them for any length of time what so ever. The reason? Well, there's 2.
Number 1, I'm lazy. Really, really lazy. In the Enneagram circle I am as strong a nine as there is. "Tis better to sit than to stand, and tis better to lay than to sit." That's my motto. Number 2, . . . . is a little more difficult to explain. Diaries and journals are very introspective. They are a method to sort out your thoughts, beliefs, and experiences. My journey through life has been a roller-coaster of amazing blessings and deep pitfalls, many of which I still can not fully recall. This means that when I try to sort out myself, my past, my emotions, I start to get very uncomfortable. This makes the task more difficult, and guess what happens THEN?? Refer to reason number 1.
Which brings us to the question, why in the name of all that is holy am I trying to go through this again? Well, I'm not getting any younger. This is not to say I'm not young at heart or in spirit, but I suspect that with more life experiences (fatherhood specifically) and maturity perhaps unraveling the difficult parts of my past will be less of a task and chore, and more of an exciting journey. A journey that will probably prove painful at times, but will leave me stronger and more complete for enduring them.
If nothing else, I'm certain my wife and a few others will get some great, voyeuristic thrill in taking these little peeks inside my head. I wonder when I'll let her know I'm doing this (he-he). My hope is by posting this on a public (not to mention free!) place, I'll be motivitated by peer pressure to update it once in a blue moon. I should also keep in mind that any there can and will probably be used against me in the future. So I'll try to keep it mostly clean, even if my thoughts are not normally that pure. (God help us)
-H-
Number 1, I'm lazy. Really, really lazy. In the Enneagram circle I am as strong a nine as there is. "Tis better to sit than to stand, and tis better to lay than to sit." That's my motto. Number 2, . . . . is a little more difficult to explain. Diaries and journals are very introspective. They are a method to sort out your thoughts, beliefs, and experiences. My journey through life has been a roller-coaster of amazing blessings and deep pitfalls, many of which I still can not fully recall. This means that when I try to sort out myself, my past, my emotions, I start to get very uncomfortable. This makes the task more difficult, and guess what happens THEN?? Refer to reason number 1.
Which brings us to the question, why in the name of all that is holy am I trying to go through this again? Well, I'm not getting any younger. This is not to say I'm not young at heart or in spirit, but I suspect that with more life experiences (fatherhood specifically) and maturity perhaps unraveling the difficult parts of my past will be less of a task and chore, and more of an exciting journey. A journey that will probably prove painful at times, but will leave me stronger and more complete for enduring them.
If nothing else, I'm certain my wife and a few others will get some great, voyeuristic thrill in taking these little peeks inside my head. I wonder when I'll let her know I'm doing this (he-he). My hope is by posting this on a public (not to mention free!) place, I'll be motivitated by peer pressure to update it once in a blue moon. I should also keep in mind that any there can and will probably be used against me in the future. So I'll try to keep it mostly clean, even if my thoughts are not normally that pure. (God help us)
-H-
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